Sunny or not? April 13, 2006

When one receives disappointing news, one's heart breaks and one leans over to God asking why.  We all know that God allows things to happen for His glory and for His purpose but from man's perspective, we just can't comprehend; that is the answer to how separate we are from God.  God is God, the Almightly, our loving Father, and we are his sheep.  The sheep doesn't know what the Sheperd has in His mind.  It is why we need God; we need Him to balance our sanity, our thoughts, and guide us into the right path.  Yesterday, Sichan and I received some disappointing news and it just breaks my heart when I see Sichan wanting to cry with redness in his eyes.  I know he's hurting, confused, disappointed yet he gave God totally glory of the situation.  Certainly, I wanted to cry also and I did this morning when I drove to my training for work, but at the same time, I pray for our family that is hurting.  I'm so proud to be called his wife because I'm reminded once again that I married a man of God.

Praise God for His anwered prayer for a sunny Sacramento today.  I'm not sure if He would want it to be sunny on saturday for our easter egg hunt, though.  I'm not stressing over it since I know that God will make everything work for good.  So, if it does rain or if the grass is too soggy and wet, we'll just have our hunt in the sanctuary.  I'm praying for the kids and their families that are planning to attend.  May our NHCC family be welcoming with open hearts and minds that will draw people closer to Him.

Maybe I should post some pictures soon.

Life April 12, 2006

Since a friend reminded me last night that I hadn’t updated my blog in a long time, I decided to do so. I also got sick of xanga since I felt so confined while using their system that I decided to join my other friends on wordpress. So far, I’ve been enjoying it.

What’s life like for me lately? Sometimes, I wish I was at home in my comfy bed with a good book while other times, I wish I was at church worshiping with my church family and yet other times I just wish that people that I don’t like would just disappear. I know my last request sounds horrible, but I can’t stop the way I feel. I just need to pray for His forgiveness and to say to myself that God loves them too.

Sichan was watching “The Ten Commandments” on tv last night. He said it was good and he couldn’t keep his eyes off the show. For myself, the only version the really intrigued me was the Charleston Heston version; maybe because it reminds me of my fond memories of childhood for some odd reason. The show was good though but just not as moving for me as the older one.

Life at work has been stressful. I have a coworker that makes life at work harder for herself and for myself. There’s tons of tension and stress. It’s so tense that even my supervisor mentioned it to me. It’s so easy for me to lose patience and to see why God loves people that doesn’t deserve it (in my eyes) and it reminds me of how much I don’t deserve His love either. When I walk into the office, I just try not to step on her toes but at the same time defend my own position. Jealousy is really evident in the room since I do get compliments and this person makes tons of mistakes. Even her own doctor that she assists recogize my work and my efforts and is constantly annoyed by her probing of questions constantly.

Sometimes I wonder is it stress that is wearing me down so that I don’t have any energy for anything else? I would love to reorganize my stamp cabinet, clean out our closet, reorgainze our kitchen, or even take a vacation? Are these just dreams of mines? I would love to be able to accomplish each task that I have but what does God have enstore for me for His plan?

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