Most of us look forward to the weekends. Weekends are usually more relaxing than our weekdays. We get to do chores around the house, hang out with other family members and friends, sleep in, and/or just to chill and catch up on a good book. I love my weekends. As much as I like to just sit and relax, our weekends are usually jam packed with activities. For instance, this past weekend, I had an opportunity to attend an awesome teaching conference called, “The Truth Project” with a few friends. Ever since I heard it on our local Christian radio station, I’ve been excited to go. I was totally blown away by the message. Parts of the message was conveying to me in a new perspective on life and the other part was a crucial reminder for me to live life with a Christian worldview perspective. I admit that with our society bombarding us with the notion of living life in a self centered way, I sometimes get wrapped into it. I get wrapped into my own life, those in my immediate group, and our church family. Anyone outside of that, I rarely think about or pray for them. Sad, isn’t it? Once I get a chance to sit down and digress the material that I’ve learned, I’ll write a post about it. In the meantime, check out the website for more info at: www.thetruthproject.org
A few weeks ago, we had an opportunity to join my best friend and her family on vacation. We all had a blast! We drove down to Northridge to pick up our neices so that my sister in law and her husband can have a little relaxing break. We took the kids to the beach, swam in the pool at the resort, and even had an opportunity to lay in the jacuzzi to relax. Boy, do I miss that jacuzzi!!!! It was great just to relax. We didn’t needed to do much or cruise around the neighborhood to find things to do. Vacations are for relaxation and I think we all took advantage of that. Sichan got a chance to play a few games with Daniel like basketball and ping pong. It was probably more like Daniel realizing how competitive Sichan is than for them to talk or anything. 
It was also great catching up with Christine Wu. We miss her since she moved down to SD and we’re excited for when she moves back to Davis in a few months.
Yesterday afternoon, I had a opportunity to attend baby shower. It was nice to see some people that I hadn’t seen for awhile like Auntie Alice. I remember back in high school when a few of us would hang out at Mel’s house and her parents were so hospitable. I can recall the first time I had dinner at their house. This is a little embarrassing to share but dinner at their home that first time was the first time I had ever used a fork/knife combo besides in a school setting. Isn’t that crazy? I was probably like 11 or 12, but being raised in a tradition Chinese home, all we ever used were chopsticks. In school, there weren’t any knives; all we had were forks that were also spoons too! I don’t think I even remember telling Mel this story before. But I do recall, that I watch them use their silverware carefully before I touched mines since I wasn’t sure if the knife was suppose to be use on the right side or on the left side. All the table manners! hehehe..I’m sure that my friend, the table manners expert is laughing at this…
I also got a phone call from a old friend last night that I hadn’t talked to in over 4-5 years. He had actually called my mom’s house to find out my cell phone number since I had changed it. Talking to him just made me reminise so many memories, even though he mentioned some memories that I still can’t recall to this day. For instance, he said that once a bunch of us like 10 of us went out to dinner at Chevy’s and he was trying to remember who sat at that table and asked me for those people’s names. I don’t remember that dinner at all and I even asked him if he was sure that I was there. He was sure that I was there but as some of you already know, I have a very selective memory. I tend to forget most things. (I hope that it’s not an early sign of Alheimer’s!!!!). Going back to my friend, the hardest part of our conversation was that I told him that one of our good mutual friends had passed away. I had to tell him what happened from the time that she went into the hospital to her last days since he didn’t even know that she was ill. That brought a some emotions up that I had packed away for some time now. She’s been gone for about two years now and it just seemed like her funeral was just yesterday. Sometimes, I want to make myself think that she’s just on vacation and that she’ll be back soon, but I know deep down that it’s not true. It’s a constant battle with myself regarding this because I know that God has a greater plan than for me to dwell on the past and my lost loved ones but at times, it’s hard to let them go. God is good and He’s healing me but sometimes I feel like I don’t want to be healed. I want to just sulk and grieve. Sometimes, I feel like I have a split personality. I don’t want to grieve anymore but yet I don’t know how not to grieve. This is why I feel His calling for Christine and I to start our GPS group on grief counseling. He’s constantly telling me that through this group, I can learn to let go and allow Him to fully heal me. Not only that, but that I can use my experiences to help others heal through His grace.
My work situation has been bad lately. Please pray for me that I would have a forgiving heart and have His patience to deal with difficult people in the office. I found out recently that when I was out last week in training and vacation that my coworker went to my bosses and had a long meeting about me. She claims that I’ve been mistreating her and that she feels that our supervisor and manager is on her side now. When another coworker told me that, I was in shock and denial. When did the office environment become so cliqish. I feel like we’re back in high school; taking sides. It’s so ridiculious. She claims that I do this and that, when I’m the one always cleaning up her mistakes or I cover her when she takes 1 1/2 to 2 hr lunches daily without any prewarn notice (especially since she leaves for lunch first), or when I leave the office, I tell her where I’m going to be at. She doesn’t have the same common respect for me to do the same yet she feels like she has the right to go behind my back and to tell on my bosses. That’s nonsense!!!
