Yesterday was the first time that I had an inch of wanting to become a mother. I’ve taken care of neices, nephew, and cousins before and never really felt that I was ready for one of our own. Many have told me that they think that I would be a good mother someday but I had always questioned it. It’s not because that I don’t trust my family and friends but I have my own fears and reservations on being a good mother. Yesterday, I had one of my neices, Jasmine on my lap. It was so adorable. Her mommy was in the sanctuary while I watched her. She didn’t want to stay in the nursery and told me “outside”. So, I went into the sanctuary with her and gave her some grapes after taking a walk with her around the building. We headed back to the nursery after the grape run and she had a few grapes in her hand. Then, she sat on my lap and just the way that she leaned back on me (being relaxed) made me want the life of a mother. It was an unbelieveable experience and yet hard to describe in words. Some say that when a married woman reaches a certain age, her desires for children will become stronger. I’m not sure if that’s the case for me. I would like to be a mother someday but am I ready for all the responsilities of being a mother? I would need to pray about it.
Another thing that triggered my thoughts about motherhood happened a few weeks ago when our other neice, Melody asked me when I wanted my own baby. Her other anutie just had a baby eight months ago and she was ready for another new cousin. I told her auntie Panya waited 10 years before they had Reyana so it wasn’t time for this auntie to have a baby yet. She then asked me if I had prayed for a baby yet because according to her, if you pray for a baby, God will give you one. Then, Aria said, “why would auntie want another baby, we’re her babies”. It’s always cute to have conversations with little ones because of their creative answers.
We’re so excited to meet her next month. Here’s a few pictures of her and with her daddy and mommy! 
